I know there's gonna be a lot of really good and really bad coming up but here's the thing when your lows reach new lows your highs get dragged down too. Any perspective offered to me I dismiss because you're not right you don't know the ways I've been perfecting the art of self sabotage. When you don't trust anyone especially not yourself and those thoughts find you and they can't leave your mouth it's pretty hard to see any solution other than to tread as lightly as possible. There used to be things that mattered to me that I wanted for myself. I used to care so much. There used to be things I'd be angry at myself for not striving for now. Let's just cut our losses and keep quiet?