i think maybe we could have been cool if i wasn't such a douche bag when i was seventeen and if i hadn't watched so many independent films alone in my room. i projected all those expectations onto you and felt like i was doing something wrong when you were a normal human being and every conversation we had wasn't deep and honest (it was still melancholic and mostly honest though). i just kind of wish i could let you know i'm ready to take myself less seriously now but i suppose that wouldn't change a thing.