okay, i used to be so content spending time alone i used to really really like it but things, like material possessions do not keep you company at all, they just can't. if we're being honest, there are some days where no one would talk to me if they weren't someone who was obligated to hand me a receipt at the end of our chat. it is probably not healthy to watch FOGGY videos and use ryan adams' mind to open up my mind but it helps and it gives me some self justification for lack of a better term. but this is not like that and let's face it, i'm not that honest if for nothing else but because of the things i leave out.
it's pretty weird how you're in high school and you think you have everything figured out. i don't think we have anything figured out!
it is very nice to have people call your mom when they get word that you're heading south in a year and tell you they want to help you figure out how to finally get something you want. man, i am spoiled.
today i facebook stalked the boys i miss and i'm not sure if you're happy but i sincerely hope you are. there are things that happened that i want to tell you about and there are things that happened that i wish you would tell me about and i was walking to the bus stop last night and i heard casimir pulaski day and you should know you changed my life even if it was just a little, everything is different because of you! i still feel happy when i think about all the nights on the phone and i still feel so nervous when i try to replay the park bench and the things we couldn't tell each other!
i think i'm stuck in my ways.
jesus christ, i shouldn't write these things.